the following was hand-written message to “school friends” , actually , she is one of those people who I sometimes suspect their knowledge in me … those people who are too awkward to call friends , yet , too awkward to no to . (yes YOU ARE i hope you are reading this -again- bro 😛 )
it (I) says :
” NOW LET ME
SAY WRITE SOMETHING
-I- am not good at expressing my ((real)) feelings through talking , so I’m writing this because I don’t think I’m going to be able to SAY it to you and get you to clearly understand me , Alright ?
as a normal human being , I find some stuff are hard to say out loud , because I’m afraid of what’s going to happen if I say It (are you getting the idea?) , so what I do is , to start “Lying” , I lie to fit in this society of stupid individuals , I lie to survive this fucked up community , I might lie about liking something I don’t even like , I laugh at stupid jokes , I act like I’m interested in stuff I don’t give a fuck about.
so yeah …. I lied … alot
but we “normal humans” do it all the time , right ?
because we cant bare how ugly the truth is
how horrible the truth is
how disgusting it is
so I’m assuming that IT IS actually a normal thing to lie …kinda…I don’t know… & I don’t care honestly
WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY IS ! :
- I lied – & I still lie – and I might be a forever a liar
- I REALLY DON’T care about what do you think about me now after reading this , I actually even never cared less than before you reading this, I don’t care if you hate me , or if you like me or whatever . YOUR FEELINGS TOWARDS ME DON’T EFFECT MY OPINIONS ABOUT YOU , but I’m just sayin’
- I wrote that I might lie to fit in the society , but that doesn’t mean I’m seeking anything big or bad or stuff like that . actually , its not worth it any more to lie just to be loved or welcomed in here …. yall suck!!
I don’t need to be loved and welcomed by you people , all I need right now at the moment is :
Tea + Sugar + Money + Water ❤
see… no “very important humans” are involved
oh and one more thing
- this whole thing is just to remind you about how this world might seem all nice and good , but its also full of evil and bad shit
So don’t be mad when life suck
don’t be sad for loosing
don’t be depressed for failing
In This life , there is no time to be sad , there is no time to cry on “things” or “people”
<Live for Yourself>
& My Mom use to say :
“!إن لـــم تـــكن ذئـــبًا ، اكـــــلتك الذئـــاب”
It kinda means “be the wolf , or else you’d be the wolf’s meal “
you still have the choice to be the wolf or it’s meal in this life
I don’t really think I got my point right but you get it
best better friend
(the liar) 😛